Did I say that?

Did I say I would start writing regularly again and not forget about this place? I think I did *blushes*. Between trying to get my walls out of the 70's, get Natalie ready for Kindergarten and Alyssa started in Preschool, my free time has been almost non-existant.

Natalie is loving K. She really likes her teachers (so do I), she's made so many new friends and is just all around a happy and fun person. I was helping her roller skate today (or, helping her not fall while wearing her skates) and all of a sudden it hit me. She is no longer my older baby. She is an honest to goodness little girl. Her face has lost all evidence that she was once a baby and the realization makes me want to cry. I'm not sure if I want to cry because I've lost something or if it's because I'm excited for all the new things that she will be experiencing in this new territory. When the little girl around the corner comes over, they like to have private time for "girl talk". I can't imagine it's anything more exciting than what she and her stuffed animals where playing that morning but the thought of it is still odd to me. The thought that she has a life separate from me is strange as well. I know all the names of her school friends but on the occasion that I see her class in the halls at school it is obvious that *I* am the outsider. When exactly does it happen? When do our lives make the shift from our children trying to be on our inside to us trying to get into theirs? I hope I don't find out for a very long time.